I have started saying..."I will be doing this next year and when I do this..." and gosh it feels good. I have made a tentative final decision about what I am doing next year, and I couldn't be happier. I am finally living out a dream that has been put on the back burner for years and I feel amazing. You know that feeling you get when you are about to start out on a new adventure? Well, my heart is racing with excitement.
One of my favorite songs, that has always been a favorite, is Colin Hay's, Waiting For My Real Life to Begin. I have always been oddly annoyed by the expectations of society and how to pursue a dream. Not that college isn't right for me, because it totally is...but why can't I live my life the way I want to live?? I don't see anything wrong with the Peace Corps, a gap year or reevaluating decisions. Society pressures youth to complete high school, college, start a career, get married, have kids, retire and die. WHERE IS THE FUN IN THAT?! After having a "falling out" with my Dad and not being able to return to my dream school, I realize that this is kind of what I have always wanted. I have always wanted to jump off the beaten path and create my own path. One of my closest friends has always said, that good things fall apart so better ones can come together. Yes, I am still devastated and will always be about the loss of Fordham University from my plan, but I couldn't be happier with this new path and plan. I guess you could say I am finally starting my real life as Colin Hay puts it. I am no longer waiting for my real life to begin, I am finally living it out! Pretty cool if you ask me :)
Not many people know about this plan, so that is why I am keeping it on the DL haha...but once more plans are finalized, I will definitely share everything!
Can't wait for this next chapter of my life to begin and experience so many new adventures!
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